I actually tweaked tf out over my future yesterday brah

Yesterday during english we had to pick classes and right now I'm going for a standard diploma [still am lowkey every adult has told me theres not difference and I said to one of my friends "yo will I lowkey screw my future over by not doing any ap classes or going for an advanced diploama" and he was like "yeah" and i started TWEAKING BRAH [lowkey embarrising i started cryin n shit] and now I'm lowkey thinking about going for an advanced dipolma because all i would need for it would be 3 years of spanish [but i HATED my spanish teacher so i quit so next year I'll prolly take spanish 2 and then senior year I'll take spanish 3 so In short I NOW have a slight backup plan if my animation degree doesn't work out at 1st, I'm gonna get a minor in buisness so I can get a good job but i was stressing out and crying for like 3 fuckin hours after school because I had stage crew and I was hungry so my boyfriend [oh my god he's such a legend] took me to get chick fil a and i was just sobbing and I just couldn't stop because I felt like abosulute DOG SHIT like I just got told theres a chance i won't be able to do what I've been wanting to do since I was like 2 and I'm sobbing just tryna make myself feel better by stuffing this food in my face but It didn't help bruh!!! I just kept crying I'm not a big fan of talking about my feels on here because it just feels pointless sometimes but just BLEGHHG [i fuckin love this emoji btw i wish i could use it when i'm texting no other emoji encapsulates the feeling it envotes inside of me] i'm feeling better because i'm at school and i saw my gang this morning [holy fuck they're so goated i love them sm] uhhhh yeah I hope this feeling passes soon i hate it so much

Winter break over :(

Holy shit I am not excited to go back to school between my mental health declining and feeling sad for no reason for the past couple of days I just really don't wanna go back brah on a more positive note I finally came up with an idea for a one shot comic! my mind wandered one time and I made Risk of Rain Two ocs because my Boyfriend is obessed with it [understandbly that game is goated] but now I decided to just make them space robots and I'm gonna try and convice my boo to help with the space worldbuilding because he is THE space guy but I'm hoping i can make that my oneshot comic to pratice panelling n stuff :p I also made a concept for a splatoon fan comic which would actually be fire asf if i could actually start it I have the character sheets done and everything but I'm not gonna show them jusssst yeeeeeeeet because the name of one of them is a spoiler!!! I also have concepts for an object show comic [I REALLY WANT TO DO THIS ONE I ALREADY STARTED THE ROUGH DRAFT BRUH ] I just need to finish the rough draft. I finally figured out how i want to make comics and draw! It's just making the sketch and erasing it because i like the way the lines look, i did it for a soon to be comic con banner! oh yeah i have a comic con I'm going to in febuaray and im stressed the FART out about it because i can't mess this up bruh!!! I've been planning the layout of my booth for MONTHS And i wanna get it perfect anyways since school is starting again we have STUPID phone policy which I can guarantee no one is gonna actually follow thats it for now bye bye

WINTER BREAK PLEAAAASE COME SOOOOOOOONN

BROOOOOO OH MY GOOODDDDDDD I actually need winter break to come soon or im gonna EXPLODE I made a dumbass list full of shit i wanted to do but i'm gonna get rid of that so i can do whatever i want. The only thing I'm gonna make a list for is prolly like... etsy stuff like restock and like sticker bonus restock. I had this idea for a MASSIVE box just full of bonus stickers so I'm gonna make that so I don't have to keep wasting time cutting out bonus stickers during work days. I wanna focus on making my new stickers [The it's time for the stickers and Murder Drones ones] Also the murder drones stickers are my 1st item to become a bestseller so I'm gonna retake the photo for it soon :P. but bruh I've been really stressed with real life stuff and school because like I've already stopped caring about school but i still have work i need to do [2 assignments] actually so happy tho I read ahead and finished the book we're reading inEnglish because i actually hate my teacher sm and the book we're reading she's treating it like it's a fiction novel but no??? It's called "The Night" by Elie Wisel and it's written by a holocaust survior and she's not treating it like a non fiction novel but like it's just some other book playing a recording and asking the stupidest questions like "what do you think will happen next in the book?" hmmmm i wonder..... anyways I'm actually so done with school sorry for no emojis i forgot

bruh i cannot code

I'm tryna code a simple div [ a box ] with a scroll bar only at the bottom so you can scroll from side to side but not up and down and my DUMBASS cannot figure this shit out currently worrking on revamping my whole art page layout because i don't like the art posts shit so I MAKING A NEW THING I'm gonna work on it over winter break because I'm like SO CLOSE to being done with work stuff and schoolso then i can work on my website more also apparently miku is gonna be in fortnite? thats cool as hell

ART RANT

Kinda just a rant and info dump on work and art realted stuff]

winter break/Etsy Work

Once i get all of my etsy work is done I can FINALLY work on an animation that's not even close to being finished and i want ot get it out on christmas/the 24th because it's actually a remake of a video i made 5 YEARS AGO but I decided I'm gonna be closing on the 18th like last year because GOD DAMN I'm not staying open until the 20th! [when my winter break starts for some reason :p] I love my job dearly its just I keep stressing about it and doing It all by myself is starting to kick in. During holidays is mainly when I get more orders n stuff which is AWESOME but also it SUCKS because I have to do it allllll by myself because i have a certain way that i do things and I can't get help from anyone else because 1. I like doing it all by myself and 2. no one can understand how i work other than myself tbh

I need to change my "art posts" side of my site

doing this "art rant" is making me realize that the "art post" section of my site is lowkey pointless I think I'm gonna do an art archive style to the art side and someone what "sugar for brains" did [their site is so cool bruh] I'm gonna look at more peoples sites for inspiration though, i don't want to take after one person lmao

Youtube Channel

Going back to my Youtube channel i was talking about earlier my youtube channel is turning 6 YEARS OLD NEXT YEAR I made it when i was like 9 i think and it started off as a gacha life youtube channel LMAO but it turned into an animation channel like 5 months later and then i made that christmas animation I'm gonna remake which I'm really happy about It's looking AMAZING so far but I'm not even half way done which I'm stressing about because i never "finsihed" my 5 year aniversary [I still uploaded it] the colored and lined parts I'm really proud of so maybe I'll finsihed it one day

Object Show Comic

so I've been working on an object show comic for like the past couple of weeks but because of work and school so I'm hoping i can actually work on it soon It's gonna be called UNO [i dunno] I thought it was cool and the orignal dumb drawing said "one" and i was like "wait thats already a PEAK object show lemme change that" so i changed it to "UNO" the characters are all drawn but they're not gonna have assets [well not like how animation ones work] They're gonna be drawn over and over again because It's a comic! I wanna get it printed and give one to JNJ and AnimationEpic because they're the biggest inspiration and there's gonna be references to many object shows too! the hardest part is definietly is trying to get the iconic "object show humor" down but me and my bf's object show sonas i made are gonna be in it [IM THE 3DS HE'S THE LOG] and i wanna animate that "results" trend thats going around so I'm gonna LOCK IN on my work soon!

One shot?

I have a really hard time making character designs and giving them away so I thought doing a one shot where i make NEW character deisgns for one story and one story only could help with that! I wanna do some sort of design portfolio exersize and comic exersize as I wanna make a TON of comics! [I'll be writing about their universes one day lmao] speaking of that I had an idea for a short comic series called "NOOB and Steve" based off of noob and steve from roblox and minecraft to pratice comic paneling and writing but then i realized "wait i can't write romanice for SHIT" so i scraped that idea like an hour later

I SUCK ASS AT CHARACTER DESIGN LMAO

i reallllly wanna make some kind of youtube video where I pratice making new character designs for a one shot and trying to not get too attached n stuff because i have a hard time making character designs and just like... leaving them alone

always chrunching

I feel like when I'm working or drawing I'm always chruching due to my poor procrastination skills [i always wait until last mintueso I really wannw work on that soon! espically with all of the motivation i have for animation now

The Future

I really wanna go to SCAD or some sort or art school to get a degree in animation as it's beena dream of mine since i was like... 10 so if i don't I'm DEAD [not really lmao]

okay thats it bye byeeee

I feel like I've hit a big creative block

I dunno man I just find it really hard to motivate myself to work on projects and create new items for my store I really want to do some inaminate Insanity items because the finally came out and IT WAS PEAK!!! [i ranted about it if you wanna go read it it's on the side nav [spoilers for everything!]] anyways I've also been drowning in orders because it's christmas time and people order alot of stuff during christmas so i'm planning on using the money to restock and TON of stuff + order new stuff also! [this is starting to sound like it belongs ojn store updates but BLEGH I DON't CARE] but I've also been really unmotivated to work on personal projects because it's like "oh this drawing could turn into a sticker or poster!" but I JUST WANA DRAAAWWW everything i do feels like it has to be related to school, Etsy, or this website. I LOVE working on this webisite i just don't know what else to add anymore besides blog all of time so i feel uncomplete. Also because i had to put out a ton for stuff because I'm very unexperienced in coding and I'm using templates most of the time [besides on the index and photo album kinda] I really wanted to do a setion called "my universe" where you could explore my BIG ASS UNIVERSE full of my characters and stories and read the comics, but everything was too high demanding for my poor coding skills maybe one dad I'll add them

I have wrist problems because of Art Fight 2023

So back in 2023 I participated In my 1st artfight and I locked the FUCK In I made like 32 drawings in one month and overworked myself on accident So i was like "hey my wrist hurts pretty bad buuuutttt i really wanna finish these drawings!!!" So i kept drawing and drawing doing revenges n stuff and after it ended i wasn't like "i should take a break" I decided to do a bunch of drawings to adpot a bunch of random toyhous.e characters [i gave them all away because i didn't like owning designs i didn't makje n stuff] so my wrist kept hurting and i draw everyday too. so ever since then [august 2023] I've been having problenms with my wrists and It sucks ASS and I've been going to the doctor about it and i just need to do wrist exersizes but i forget so It just keeps getting worse, like even as I'm typing it hurts I really wanna learn how to write with my left hand because that would be HANDY

I spent way too long on that Inaminate Insanity post I didn't hear anything my teacher said whoops

uhmmmm please watch inaminate insanity before readig the post btw or just like... don't read it LMAO

SPOILERS FOR INAMINATE INSANITY!!!!!!

HOLY SHIT OKAY Inaminate Insanity's second season offically ended and holy shit i wanna ramble about it so spoilers for ALL OF IT If IF you have never watched Inaminate Insanity probably don't read this i spoil EVERYTHING FROM ALL SEASONS

this part was 47 mintues long bruh which i was SOOOO happy about no joke! the finale for murder drones was only like 25 mintues long [SHORTER THAN THE PILOT LMAOOOO] I am quite jelous that people got to watch the movie in fuckin LA but I'm so far away i couldn't I LOVED THIS SO FUCKING MUCH AUGGHHH

II was my 1st object show so I'm actually really upset

it's over because I've been waiting for season 2 to finish for like 6 years! and I wish i could've waited longer... I never watched season 3 until it ended and I'm really happy I did because BOT is justa great character man and I'm PISSED OFF THEY WERE OFF SCREEN IN THE FINALE

PAPERJAY BEING CANNON WAS SO CUTE OH MY GODDDDD

i never really shiped them because i they didn't get enough screen time but in episode 17 when Paper yelled "HE IS NOT YOUR BOYFRIEND" i definiety saw it bruh [NOW I WANNA BUY THOSE KEYCHAINS ON ETSY GRAAAGGH]

Mephone4S coming back

him coming back actually made me giggle and kick my feet [and punch my boyfriend out of excitement] because 1. HE WAS IN SEASON 3 AND I WANTED MORE THAN JUST ONE VOICE LINE FROM HIM 2. I LOVE HIM BUT THAT COOKIED DOWN BRUH!!!! Him talking to Knife was great actually and

Knifes scarifice

bro it was was mh PERFECT Marshmello was being such a bitch to him bruh I'm glad he scarificed himself for her n stuff but now he can't comfort suitcase and that made me sad bruh also i have a feeling testube and fan can like use their science and bring them back m stuff because they're NERDS

BOX?!

I got box being alive spoiled for me a bit because i saw her like alive n stuff in a thumbnail but that was it everyone treating box like they were alive the whole time and acting like it was a bit was really funny lowkey and now it makes sense why they removed the old box captions because they changed the twist in stuff

EVIL COBS

Cobs was so good in this episode [villian wise] it definiety put into perspective that Mephone is actually just a kid like I headcannon him to be like 30 or something because of voice but mentally he's just a kid and he doesn't know anything and Cobs was being EXTRA EVIL just straight up punching him and everything like the pure rage like OH MY GOD [I'm so happy he exploded btw]

Mephones Voice actor COOKED

Mephone's voice actor has really imporved over the years because like It's Adam's father and dam he COOKED like the emotion you can hear behind mephone's voice when he says "You're alive?" BRUH THAT WAS SO GOOD Mephone has always been my favroite since i was younger so I'm happy that he has someone like 3gs to hangout with n stuff because like "It's so good to see you" IS FINALLY RESPONDED WITH YOU TO BRUH RAHHHGHGHHH OH MY GOODDDDD I LOVE INAMINTE INSAITY SO MUCH

Call backs and references

oh my god they were so good i was giggling HEHEHE the final song was really good with all if the references to past songs, and the call back to Mephones talking hand because of 4S's scarfice GRAGH that was really cute also "no more it gets good just skip season 1" IS SOMETHING I ACTUALLY TELL PEOPLE SO FELT CALLED OUT well don't skip season 1 it's very very very important for context [espicallyf for later season 2 with taco like bruh when i was younger i had no idea who the hell she was because i skipped it in the beginning but don't worry i've watched season 1 like 4 times by now] at most I've actually skipped season 3 [i watched it eventually] but Logan never did so i filled him in a bit

MUSIC

all of the music was so good for the whole movie and show like "the future is so yesterday" has been stuck in my head for like MONTHS same with tacos tirade Mepad's voice actor and Taco's in that COOKED

ANIMATION

HOLY SHIT IT WAS SO SMOOTH the show has improved in style and just everything espically since season 1 because now they have that classic object show style that many have before bfb era of object shows. To be honest i prefer the classic style of object shows with the orignal bfdi mouths instead of the hand draw ones. more modern object shows like It's time for the and TPOT lean more towards this style and it looks amazing but i just prefer the classic on you know? I think inaminate instanity really built on the style of the orignal BFDI with season 2 and i just hate how they threw it away with Season 3 bruh like I'm not a big fan of the season 3 style, i actually prefer the season 3 contestants in the season 2 style! It just screams more inaminate insanity to me [also the colors are too bright for me]

THE END OF THE RANT

I'm really intrested to see what the adamation team does next i would love to see an episodic type show with the season 2 cast as the egg alien dudes were all like "They're gonna need this" ON MY LIFE THATS A RECOVERY CENTER!!! BALLOON NEEDS THAT SHIT HE WILL DIEEEEEEEEE anyways thats it bye byeeeee

Oh my god it's december tomorrow?!

This year went by too fast many i feel like I was rotted beyond hell I'm lowkey really pissed off my football team is really good because I have to keep wasting my fridays doing dumb ah marching band it sucks ass mainly because it's my boyfriends birthday on one of the extended football games and I was gonna do special special secret!!! Also i just learned today that you can add scratch games to your neocities so I've been working on a dress up game for the past hour n a half while re watching TPOT I LOVE OBJECT SHOWS SM BRUH!!! Me and Logan are planning on going to the next BFDI x II meetup together because we missed this years and that shit looked FIREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I'm so upset we didn't go but it was far away n stuff and there is NO WAY either of our parents would've allowed it The Inaminate Insaity Finale came out yesterday but because of a DUMB AH FOOTBALL GAME I DIDN"T WATCH IT!! me and Logan have been watching the new episodes together so we're waiting to watch it together because we couldn't hangout today and i got SHIT SPOILED FOR MEEEE tomorrow though I'm gonna be geeking about it on my blog prolly lmao I'm hoping to get the site offically finished soon because I'm lowkey kinda tired of working on it plus i have checklist and i wanna get the "finish site" box checked off +then i can dick around and post whatever after and not have to code code code code and look for templates because my dumb ass doesn't actually know how to code and i just edit templates [LIKE THIS ONE!!!!] anyways bruuh it's actually naptime [11:05] so nighty night!!

FINALLY

WE FINALLY GOT OUT OF SCHOOL OH MY GOOOOODDD i don't know why but school has been very boring recently like holy shit get me outta hereeeee!! well it's probably ebcause I've been staying up too late that's my own fault okay so like apparently my art teacher got to go to college for free because of being a burger king scholar which you can just appply for?! she told us about how her teacher paid for her SAT because she was super duper smart! but because of COVID she figured out she wanted to major in art and just changed her major but she got to basically go to college for free n stuff. there was more to the story but i FORGOT LIKE A DUMBASS anyways I'm AMERICAN RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH so i get 5 days off!!! I'm hoping i can catch up on all of these orders i have for my etsy [LIKE 27] I don't like to talk about my etsy on my personal blog because thats what the store updates + I'm nervous !!! It's christmas time so I'm DROWNING in orders so i need to make sure they'll get done ASAP! I was thinking about closing the store on the 20th because people do late late late shoping + thats when my christmas break starts for some reason [i get to come back on JAN 6th tho so i don't care] bro for my english class [I HATE MY ENGLISH CLASS BRAH ] i was doing the assignment and earlier that day it got deleted so i had to redo it it was annoting as hell! it was on some new program my teacher was using and i didn't understand why she didn't just use Google Docs like it would've been so much easier but okay, i had to email her and everythang. Thankfully she's switching back to docs because of the error.

BAHAHA MY FRIEND PAPER JUST GOT WRITTEN UP FOR SAYING HIS PHONE IS AVERAGE SIZE

the following is an interview with the victum

Paper: A kid said my Iphone mini was small, I girl HALF WAY across the room made a joke saying it was average, and I agreed cus I thought it was funny as shit. He yells at me and the other guy and we get taken out the class for all of 15 secounds before he swings the door open to scold us. he "Didnt have time to yell at us or be proffesional" but he could "still have time to write us up"

school phone policy

holy FART okay so in the begining of the school year my stupid ass school annouced there would be a new school phone policy. I didn't really think anything of it because i don't really play on my phone much during school unless it's to talk to my friends or something. But like during lunch i have it on me and sometimes i pull it out n stuff but like oh my god it's going to be no phones during lunch either. the way the policy is working is so fucking stupid, it's like from the 1st bell to the last bell no phones at all which personally i don't really care about but like STILL IT'S DUMB half of the reason we have this policy is prolly because of all the school fights n stuff because they keep being posted and shared around BAHAHA my friend "Paper" made an edited video of two girls fighting with like smash bros icons ontop + made an ultra kill edit of these two guys fighting and it was so good that people tired making other edits to "matc a fraction of his power" BAHAHA . my current english teacher [which like no one in my grade likes to be honest + no one in the school likes either LMAO] she went on a whole ass rant for like 20 FUCKING MINTUES about how she LOVES the new policy and can't WAIT for it to be inacted on in like january after christmas break!!! i literally kept her talking so i didn't have to do school work it was awesome this one math teacher keeps saying like "omga! it's gonna be amazing ya'll are gonna have to interact with eachother!!" omga! it's almost like some people are anti social and have anxiety bruh this one teacher is like i know i'll be fine because im not a screenanger i just like being online n stuff + i have a hardrive that i put a ton of music and videos on. like bro i actually should make a seprate blog about it because i love this thing so much I'm literally so happy I'm keeping my long hair because it's sooooo easy to hide my earbuds during class like they have no idea mwehehehe

just had to run the mile with like no preperation and that shit sucked! I also had to stay up like super late last night because i have like 10 7 orders due today and it takes me waaaaaay too long to pack them. I love my job tho and i'm so grateful that i'm actually able to make a profit off of my art! I never thought i'd get here in life with it lowkey... i mean every since i was like 10 it was my dream to become an animator and thats getting closer and closer everyday with college n all. I mean in junior year people actually start talking about college but i think i have SAT's this school year so I've gotta make sure to study eventually.

Kinda boring weekend well not really i got to hangout with my boyfriend which was awesome of course Today Is our 5 months actually which is crazy! sadly we can't hangout today because we have DND after school and we're like in the final battle of our current capaign and 2 we have band practice after school which sucks ass because It's for like 3 hours and it's soooo borrrinnggggg I've got so many orders and other etsy work i need to do which is great but it also isn't because that means i won't have any time to try and play BO6. brah i downloaded that last night and it was 300 GIGABYTES shits crazy man... I'll have to post some actually storys about like... stuff that happened and not just me yapping n shit lmao i really really really wanna talk about one of my favorite bands ever And One. Their style is so uqiue and no one talks about them besides their most popular song "miliatry fashion show"

My week went by pretty fast lowkey... my weekend was okay i guess i usually hangout with my boyfriend but he went out of state to vist his brother and his niece! [guess i'm an uncle now lawl [well techincally he already had a nepthew BUT STILL]] week was alright i got monday off because of vertrans day and i saw my grandpa [he was in the army if i remember correctly] and later in the day i got icecream with my dad because he's active duty and gets free stuff lawl. DND was ALMOST canceled on tuesday BUT since we have 2 dugeon masters one of them was able to run the whole thing by himself. For context we have a MASSIVE DND group like 10+ people hopfully some people are going to leave soon because i don't know if my duegon masters can handle this many the latest sesh was okay but this one kid "Krator" [his character's name] might be faking his rolls because he hasn't gotten anything below a 10 yet Wenesday I had to stay after for stage crew and paint some stuff for our show choir show and i ended up dripping paint like everywhere it sucked! thursday i like had no work and friday [today] i have like 1 assigmemnt. I'm hoping to work on my object show comic soon and post it! I already made a comic fury for it and i was considering also posting it on webtoon??? i dunno the flow of it doesn't work that way

on a more sader note i found out that one of my friends passed away on friday... I wasn't very close with him but i still consider him a friend, he was very nice and was actually my dugeon master for my first ever dnd campaign i had a ton of fun and i thank him for that. I was on stage crew for my school and he was in the show chior show he graduated last year and it's crazy to think he's not here anymore... i've never really experienced a loss before espically with someone around my age group so it's a new feeling for me. May he rest in piece.

I finally finished the blog! I'm really happy with how it turned out I'm not that great of a coder and i only know the basics so I'm glad i was able to find some templates to get started with... I do eventually plan on making something 100% original but for now this is how i do it and i love it! I'm just a big fan of customization so thanks to everyone on neo cities that makes templates! and also to my friend Chrono who knows how to code n stuff [he got me back into the whole online website stuff and i love it!] currently still doing that school work lmao it's fr just one question i just got distracted with this website lmao. I'm going to design a header then I'm offically done working on the blog for a bit, next thing I'll do is the store updates and the photo album. I don't know what to do for the "my universe" part of the site because I made a plan and drew it all out but i don't know how to code that right now and I don't really have the time with school n all so for now I'll just info dump on some of my character [i have over 35 including sonas] next post will be an actually blog post trust!

I'm so hungry right now oh my gawwwdd working on this site is like so much fun though! sadly i have like... two assignments i need to do but only one of them is due today lmao which actually i should just do right now lowkey because like i only have one question left but my lazy ass still just doesn't want to do it

testing testing 1 2! working on the blog!